In a dilemma, 3:36:00 AM
I slept at 7.30am. I stayed awake just to go to school. But don't know why, i was too lazy to go to school and ended up i went to sleep. And i woke up at 7.30pm just now. Went to buy dinner. Ate handmade noodle and kfc's popcorn chicken, lol :X
Btw, Channel 8's 9pm show super nice :D I like this kind of drama, hoho.
Seriously, i don't know what to talk about in this post. Because, there's quite a few things i'm confused about. And my headache is getting worse. Life's a bitch nowadays...
I read back my blog archive and realised that alot of my post is talking about you. Don't you feel it? And yet you can say after reading my blog post, you realised that we're totally different. And i'm the one acting like a "player", not you. You even asked me don't act like i love you when i've other guys after you left me. You even asked me to go ahead and change my number, and quit my fb. Because the more i run away from problems, the more the problems comes to me.
Now, i throw back all the replies back to you. And i know you'll come and read. Firstly, you're the one cheating on me. I didn't even cheat on you. Secondly, you said alr after you left me I've other guys. What about you? You've got other girls when we're tgt. Whose more worse? And can't I have other guys after you left? I know, you wanted me to be an idiot to wait for you to come back what. Thirdly, you asked me to go ahead and change my number and quit my fb. But before that you also me don't do that. Seriously what you thinking huh? Lastly, I chose to run away from all these because I know all these ain't gg to end in anyways. Everytime when you say you ain't gg to contact me anymore, after a few days or weeks you'll contact me back again. And then I'll get to know more about what you've done again. When are all these gg to stop?
To add on, did you try reading my blog post since last time? I bet you don't because i don't think you'll give a damn and read it. Whatever okay? I'm done with all these means i'm done. You always say that you wanted to change. But did you put in any effort? The answer is no. Yes, you did try to quit your fb. But after awhile, you used back and added more girls. You tried to stop contacting other girls, yes you did it. But it's only awhile.
I thought that you're really sincere in wanting me back. But, i was so wrong. You're still contacting her and other girls. If you meant to play with me, i suggest you, stop all your fucking nonsence. You're not seeing things, i scolded vulgarities. Because i'm too pissed with you.
And i've got alot more things to rant about. But thinking back, it's pointless. Because whatever i say, you won't change, forever won't. Us, being tgt is really a big joke. We're just wasting each other's time. You've never ever loved me before. Because if you really do, you won't even cheat on me. Do you know how fucking hurtful it is to be cheated? And i guess i'm not deserved to be cheated either. Quit wasting so many people's time. If you want someone, just go get it la. No need to be so greedy. One girl for you isn't enough right? Then go get all the prostitude to be your girlf. Don't cheat people's feeling towards you. Because cheating on others makes you becomes a jerk, a fucking jerk.
I still rmb, i was the one who wants a breakup. And no doubt, i won't regret. Forever i'll not regret. And whereas, you'll be the one regretting on why you cheated on me in the first place. I hope this post you've read will really knock some positive sense into your brain. Change back to the old you that i've known 2years back.
Though we can't be tgt, i still hope we'll be like 2years back, BFF. You're the one who heard and seen me cry before. You're the one that i always confide on. You're the one who always make me laugh. You're the one who always sing on the phone out of the blue. You're the one who always talk to yourself when i'm angry with you. Too much to list down, but that you is gone. It'll never be back i guess.
Hello. My name is Meiyee.
